dang i miss my friends. how sad is it that i can’t be away from anderson for a weekend without missing everyone like crazy?
i miss erin angela and erica. i miss them so much it hurts. i’m going to charlotte asap.
i miss kat and beth. and phil and jess. jess comes back on TUESDAY and it makes me so happy! i miss staying up all night with kat, and writing stories, and reading horrible short stories. i miss the voice i read my short stories in. i miss beth being awkward 
i need phil to drive me around in his mustang.
i’m so ready for everyone to be back in anderson.
i have a challenge ahead of me this year. i really hope i can handle it.
stupid sappy movies are making me cry a LOT lately. like, even when people kiss, i cry. why? i don’t know. maybe because i know i can’t handle a normal relationship. that’s definitely why. i can’t handle being in a relationship that moves forward. i do everything backwards. the new series at newspring is rocking my world. and i like it. even songs are making me cry. tilt by wild sweet orange (thanks jess) gets me everytime. falling out of your dress by marry a thief is even worse. i recommend them.
i read my sister’s senior ad today, and instantly was hysterical. i bawled. i had forgotten what i wrote to her. that she was my best friend. my rock. the only constant (aside from jesus) in my life. i looked at all the pictures my mom chose to go in the ad. she chose one from a play that i was in when i was 9. i was a crab, decked out from head to toe in orange. even orange lipstick. allee was 6, and clutching to me. i miss that.
i’m starting a fast on monday, for 14 days. no food, only water and a lemonade mixture. i want to learn to depend fully on God. i need to be in constant prayer. there are so many things i need to get out of my life. things that hold me back and keep me down. pray for me if you think about it.
i think its really stupid that hannah montana and miley cyrus are two separate people. everyone KNOWS they’re the same person! i still love her. she makes me think of the com lab, dance parties, lime chips, and miss vickie. i’m ready for school.
